finding happiness,,

slalu saya baca status kt fb..such as....hidup mencari bahagia...aku ingin kebahagian itu menjadi milikku..ingin menjadi bahagia....mecari erti bahagia...bersabar demi bahagia...aku mahu happy...n mcm2 lagi...itu buktinye kebahagian sgt penting untuk makhluk bergelar manusia...klu search kt Google...mcm2 tips and petua untuk bahagia..contohnye...7 langkah untuk menuju kebahagian...or how to find happiness..or tips medapat kebahagian sejati...and so on and on and on...mcm susah betul untuk bahagia..manusia tak sedar...kerana asyik sgt mencari kebahagian mereka terlupa kebahagian itu letaknye pada rasa SYUKUR...kalau hati tidak pernah mahu bersyukur sampai kapan pun bahagia itu ngak bisa ditemukan(momokan bibik indon):P

I'am Hazelnut..

You Are a Hazelnut

You are very unique and distinct. You may even freak some people out.
Most people don't really know how to interact with you.
You get along best with anyone who is super sweet.
But you really do get along with almost anyone. You just need a chance to wow them.

i took a random quiz...it's about a nut that embody you..so i'm Hazelnut..the nut that i like most:D

so..what's nut are you?find it u'reself here

helpless..

~helpless..that what i fell..satu benda yang sangat saya tak mampu untuk berusaha..di mana silap..dimana kurang..sungguh saya tak tahu..like u chasing something..in the end its just a shadow..bayang 2 hitam atau kosong..i can't touch it,feel it, apalagi untuk gengamnya dalam tangan..ujian..sungguh lama saya besabar dgn ujian ini..mungkin datang dari kekurangan sendiri..hingga Allah masih lagi mahu menguji..its really hard to keep positive in this situation..seperti everything goes wrong..i avoided myself from thinking much..and live a life as it should be..in a bright day..i can smile..and in rainy day i can't help myself from tears..dan soalan ni slalu ada...untill when??

a missing part!

its been a very long time..i lost this feeling..a feeling to trust sumone, to keep sumone by your side, to not think much and follow u're heart, to not just think only u're own self, to have confidence with the other, to share the talk, and to refill the missing part...lately..just lately..i'm trying to change that old story...i'll stay positive even its hard and tough..MaY ALLAH Barakah will always be mine..

shameless~

lately popular trend video blogging, miming and all kat youtube..paling femes teacher shida dari parit...sekelip mata aksi miming and gimik teacher shida femes seantero tanah melayu..kat rodio kat tv...nma teacher shida top giler..yes she's a teacher..may i ask u something la kan?if u all ada anak..will u let teacher shida teach u're kids??is her a good example?? for me, she seems mentally retard..no offense ..tu from my own perspective je..orang lain,lain pandanganye..this post bukan nak condemn teacher shida..tapi nak kongsi pandangan saya terhadap sikap orang melayu hari ni...bukankah melayu terkenal dengan adat,budi dan santunnye?perempuan melayu tinggi pekertinye..mesti org akan ckp..kenape nma teacher shida plak jadi mangsa..for me she's a good example to be main topic..semua orang kenal kut..klu saya sebut nama rina bohsia kampung baru..ada anda kenal?so dia tak leh jadi main topic untuk didiskusi...memang sangat2 ramai lagi perempuan melayu yang lagi parah dari teacher shida..at least teacher shida miming n buat gimik je..u can called me orthodox or what..sumtimes..yes i'm..saya bukan baik...tapi bagi saya nilai melayu mesti dijaga...terjagakan nilai dan pekerti melayu..bila terkinja2 didepan camera..dengan mimik muka yang menjelikkan(mungkin lucu pada pandangan mata lain)..saya nak tengok habis pun tak lalu...and yet..she's a teacher.. a role model for our future generation..who will lead our kids to concure the future world..bagaimana bila menonton filem melayu dulu..wanita melayu penuh dengan santun,percakapan yang diatur-atur,tingkah yang penuh kesopanan,bahasa yang indah dan berisi, senyum yang manis..tawa yang terjaga,adat yang dipelihara..mana hilangnye semua itu dalam jiwa gadis melayu? sedangkan yang jelik dipandang elok...dan bagaimana kesantunan di kata kuno..di mana kita melayu berpijak..baru 53 tahun merdeka..masayarakat kita hanyut dalam kemodenan barat...kenapa memelihara adat dikata kuno?dikata tidak maju?sedangkan negara jepun paksi asia masyarakatnya rata-rata memelihara adat hingga hari ini?siapa kata kemodenan dan adat tidak boleh selari?tiada bukti membuktikan adat menyebabkan kemunduran..begitu juga agama..dalam agama kita..MALU itu ditekankan..mana kita campakkanya?tudung litup dikepala..cukupkah mencerminkan MALU itu ada?sedangkan dosa dianggap mulia..perlu di tayang2 seluruh alam..dibangga banggakan pula...bila saya tengok coment kat video teacher shida..ramai yang cakap,cikgu shida rock,lucu,berbakat and all..bila ada je yang tidak,dikatakan orang itu jeles..ingin saya tekankanlah..kenape dikatakn jeles????terang2 post saya ini tidak menyokong tindakan teacher shida..and if ada org kata saya jeles..adalah saya ingin anda paham..tidak ada ape2 nilai pun yang hendak saya cemburukan dari teacher shida tu...jeles bukanlah alasan yang bagus kepada bukan penyokong macam saya..bagi saya..saya jijik..menyampah..hairan kenapa ada orang tanpa rasa MALU...saya bukan jeles atau cemburu!!! saya pernah dengar jugak begini"dia jeles sebab teacher shida popular dah masuk tv"...bagi pendapat saya...takde ape nak jeles klu masuk tv dengan cara murahan mcam tu...not provided good example plak tu..ape yang dapat dihayati?atau diambil iktibar dengan aksi2 macam tu?nothing....mecemarkan adat melayu...saya bukan juga orang penuh adat atau sopan...cuma saya rasa kita perlu berusaha untuk tidak mencemarkan atau dalam kata lain..pelihralah adat..betul kata DR.M Melayu mudah lupa..ini baru satu contoh yang kecil..tak lagi isu zina,isu keruntuhan akhlak remaja,pembuangan anak,coruption,politik,rumahtangga....mana suara melayu yang dulu ?bercakap dengan penuh sifat kepahlawan melayu..penuh dengan ilmu dan tauladan..jarang sekali suare begitu kedengaran hari ini...MALU melayu telah hilang.....patut dibangga atau ditangisi?

Daripada Ibnu Umar r.a. bahawasanya Rasulullah s.a.w. berjalan melalui seorang
lelaki dari golongan kaum Anshar dan ia sedang menasihati saudaranya tentang hal
sifat malu. Kemudian Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda: "Biarkanlah ia, sebab
sesungguhnya sifat malu itu termasuk dari keimanan."

(Muttafaq 'alaih)

grew tomato man!

still remembered tomato man??hahaha..tomato man one of 10 vegetables heroes..anime from 80's and 90's.. dulu, i love to hear tomatoman theme song..very captivated..hehehe...neway,i'm not going to write about tomato man,but about the tomato above , my mom grew its in our garden,i though the malaysian climate not very suitable to grow up tomato noncommercial, but still, we manage to grow it in our own home,mybe becoz now is the month of December,so cuaca not very hot n linen sikit kan..from my observation its best month to grow tomato in u're own garden, pokok tomato ni sensitif sikit dgn panas,klu matahari terik je,pokok dia terus yellowish,n mcm tak bermaya je..n its also need much water to grow,tomato ni very fresh, n sweet also, its really differ from tomato u bought at mart, becoz we grew it organically,without any chemical and all, so its preserve natural taste n freshness..give it a try,it worth to grow its by u're own..neway,for those who miss tomato man like me,here the theme song from tomato man series,with a lyric too..hihi

tomato tomano tomato matok,
tomato tomano tomato matok
tomato ke mizaru
tomato ke miza..u
tomatoman..
tomato yate i ka kuda monnoka
tomato juzsubanominonate
tomato keca abut tak kiru monno
karu ka karu kade kasbishita’e
sora sora kotaewot
tasyiakkayi
kokenoto tomatoman!
tomato tomado yu tomato matok
tomato tomado yu tomato mato
tomato ki itta’u tomato ki itta’u
tomatoman !

past present future~

i'm not living to think of the past neither the future..i'm living for the present..future is unpredictable n the past was something bygone..its worth nothing to think both..we couldn't grab the past again,coz its farthest distance, u just could remind of it..n the future,is something we never know,we can plan,but the result maybe different, in future we also will dispose..its time that we can't ever imagine..n beyond our knowledge, i'm living for the present..cos its the only time i fell n experince everything,there's no memories or suprise..we just let our self go through with the time and situation, we can't avoid it by fact..actually, i avoided myself from thinking sumthing from the past, coz its sumtimes really hard to remind it and in other time its make me ungrateful to live in the present..like i really need time machine to travel back to pastime..and it also not me to think of the future, future is not the life that u predict, not the life that u aspect to be like u're dream, i'm not dare to dream thoroughly, i have lots of dream, n not devoted to only one, i like to keep myself lots of options for the future,coz future is really strange to me, the place that by a chance i will reach someday n have no idea how its will be..so that how i set my mind, not to think both!some people would think i'm forgetful, and some will think i'm lack determination..n i'm really not to think of what other think~for me,we really helpless to think of the past n future~

p/s:i'm not english teacher,so i'm really bad with grammar..fuhh..