uNgrateful...

looking the others...its really tiring and ungrateful...i lost my happiness behind every smile of them..i wish..for another life..or another dream...or another hope...yet another happiness..what my life take me anyway??
i'm so hepy yesterday..i'm so excited today..but shamelessly i wish much for tomorrow.. the sun still smiling..the tree still waving all da way..the sky still bright..the star still shining...i'm still living..still breathing...still wishing for nothing...always ask for sumthing that i'm really not understand with...for every granted wishes...there's also another sacrifice to be ritual..still..i want to see another happiness..what another pleasure to seek??
~i'm just ordinary human who seek for extraordinary life...the way of life that sentence..i wish to be different...
~ i'm just every human..who still forget to be GRATEFUL...

LiVe whaT u Love~

life..
future..
dream...
hope...
love...
passion...
belief..
family...
friend..
self...

just live what u love~

~The most exhausting thing in life is being insincere...If you are ashamed to stand by your colors, you had better seek another flag....


Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss

objection~

how if we deciding to object than agree???

objection means we deciding to state the negative statement.."no" "not" " i can't" "i won't" "i don't" and sort of it..

i fully understand that for certain situation..its just so good to object..its open up to new idea generation and help to change way of thinking..but how if--->

"i don't want to help when asked to"
"i 'm not laughing for the joke that everyone laugh"
"i don't want to have friendship when other want it"
"i'm not eating when politely invited"
"i said i can't when other invited"
" i choose not full the request when requested"
" i'm not pick up call when the others called"

and so on.....

Am i problematic??? Am i sinful to object??Am i bad to be truth???

Lately...i just found out...I must do only thing that i'm really sincere to do...and i think nothing wrong if we object...I'm the one who will answer the request anyway...in malay tradition ..at least they will say. .."buatlah..jaga hati"..how capable we are to satisfy everyone everytime???for me "buatlah..kalau rasa ikhlas"...i'm know how suffer it is to do sumthing we forced to..i will answering request or doing the favor..if there no choice other than me..itu sudah jadi fardu kifayyah anyway...just because most of time ..i'm trying to sattle my own problem till the end rather than bothering the others..so i'm really hate those who like to take advantage before trying to hard to solve their own problem...that way..now..i'm so very selfish just do only the thing i'm willing to do..i felt bad after i object..but i know..i will suffering enough if i answer it..pretend ..fake up.. hipocriet.. anyway to object and being truth is a wise choice for now...i hope so..

addicted with D.I.Y stuff...

lately i'm exploring new world of D.I.Y..which stand to ..do.it.yourself..its provide lots of new knowledge that we can practice or use in our daily life..make us more creative and have different view regarding almost everything in this world...its open new dimension to different world...i'm really enjoying it..in western culture..D.I.Y project already wellknown and succesfully applied in their life....i think Malysian also take a look at it and try it on u're own..its will give new experience and satisfaction..


this some useful link to D>I>Y project...

http://www.threadbanger.com/


http://www.youtube.com/user/threadbanger?blend=1&ob=4

they also have their own youtube channel..practically u can learn it from their tutorial..

this the other one...

http://www.cutoutandkeep.net


we can find out more ..just google it..

setan ke manusia??

mimpi is so comman with me..i dream in my sleep almost every night..i think not almost..but difinitely every night..masa aku umur dalam 8 tahun dolu2..baru aku tau..tak semua orang bermimpi tiap2 malam...tapi semalam aku mimpi ngeri...its quiet long time i'm not dreaming of scary things like ghost or stupid creature yang menakutkan..semalam pun aku tak mimpi hantu..tapi lebih tepat aku mimpi syaitan or devil or setan..maybe lately aku banyak sangat tengok the arrival kut??i'm learn to be a person that appreciate every thing happened in my life..so i keep on thinking about my dream rather that assume it as useless dream..this is short summary of my dream...suddenly out of no where..keadaan dalam mimpi tu kelam kabut..like a disaster occurred...so my family n i decided to stay in our home...close all the door n window n gather in one place for safety...there sumthing hunting us..not only our family but all over the village i think...then..benda yang kitorang takut takutkan tu..sampai rumah kitorang..ala-ala zombi kampung pisang pun ada...haha..suddenly my father said....that thing is a devil..a group of devil..my heart is pounding tambah2 tak pernah tengok setan tu mcm mana..tapi bila aku tengok2 ikut tingkap..rupenye a group of man je yang bawak senapang n all..keadaan dah makin kalut..aku duk terfikir2 dalam mimpi tu..setan ke orang ke ...setan muka orang ke..susah la mcm ni..camne nk lawan...tapi derang passed by je rumah ktrang..fuh lega...tah macam mana..kitrng satu keluarga dah ada dekat pusat pemindahan..mimpi la katakan..the situation was really crowded n huru hara..orang 2 kat situ asyik duk pesan..jangan percaya sapa-sapa..setan tu ada sekeliling kita..n of course dalam bentuk manusia..sampai la di akhir mimpi tu..ada sorang askar tu cakap kat aku..dia tu setan..n dia cakap semua setan tengah berusaha bertukar jadi manusia...tengah2 panik camtu tiba-tiba aku terjaga...hahaha...but i'm really think hard after that dream..for me moral of this story is..bukan setan bertukar jadi manusia...but nowaday..manusia ramai sangat decide nak bertukar jadi setan..berlumba-lumba untuk menjadi setan..semua nak convert jadi setan dalam macam2 cara dan perbuatan la...tambah kan populasi setan..tu la klu kita renung2..memang susah nak jumpa manusia yang manusia sekarang...kita mungkin tak pernah terdengar atau terlihat atau terbaca..kisah setan berhati manusia..tapi sering kita dengar manusia berHaTI SETAN!!

penipu..menipu..

penipu dan menipu..orang dan perbuatan...tahap pengukuran moral adalah dibawah takat beku...dikira sebagai sifat2 negetif...i write this entry..not because i mad with some one...just lately bnyak sgt tengok citer2 ......so banyak sangat kes menipu..ada tipu tipu kecik..tipu besar yang dikenali sebagai penipu besar...tipu sunat atau bohong sunat..yang mana hukumnya mmg sudah menipu....my question is ..kenapa kita menipu??i'm not point it to others..because i also menipu for some reason...bila pikir2...aku menipu kerana terdesak...lemah..panik??ye ke??..ada jugak orang buat hobi menipu nie..ada lebih bagus buat profesion untuk kelangsungan idup...bagus2..bagi hemat akulah..orang menipu ni sebenarnya org yang lemah...atau jugak penting diri..orang menipu untuk menutup satu kesalahan..mengcover kelemahan diri..untuk menunjukkan satu kebaikan atau kelebihan yang memang tak wujud..kerana memang tidak berkemampuan..but i don't know why..aku rasa orang menipu ni seorang yang tamak..they want to grab what their hand unable to...kalau boleh semua benda dia nk dalam dunia nie...menipu untuk pangkat..menipu untuk nama..menipu untuk perhatian..menipu untuk harta..menipu untuk kemaafan..menipu untuk kebahagian...menipu ini untuk itu...dan setiap kali aku menipu atau ditipu..i feel that..sungguh mudah maruah digadai..its start with white lies..and end up to kill one soul..n maybe more..

What i would like to change about myself?

Being a normal human being, I'm always struggled to be the perfect one.Back to 3 or 4 years ago,I still remembered that i had the long list of things that i wanted to change about myself.That was the moment where i struggled to be independent and mature, from a teenage to the adult. Along that journey , i keep thinking how to be the perfect person. I gave a less thought in every move i took, i keep changed myself to be something i couldn't,then i realized that i moved in wrong direction. When that happened, it was back to square one for me.I'm too rushing in the past. When this question asked again in my life, I'm very sure for now,that nothing i want to change about myself. I'm really grateful to be what I'm for now on. I know i'm not the perfect one, but i learned from my past life,to appreciate myself more than everything else. Yes, of course i had my own bad attitude, and sometimes i'm rude, but that what made me an ordinary person.I believe that as long as i act what the human should be, so that it is enough to keep on living.