kawan lama..

hari ini..kawan lama pergi tanpa ucapan selamat tinggal..mengenalinya hampir lebih setahun yang lepas..aku cukup selasa mengenalinya dan memahaminya..hari ini,kami berjanji temu di pagi hari...dalam perjalanan yang penuh sesak..sedang aku masih beramah mesra dengannya..tiba tiba dia pergi begitu saja...pertemuan pertama..aku membawanya pulang ke rumah..dan hari hari berikutnya..ia setia dengan aku...sangat berterima kasih..kawan lama itu..banyak menyimpan memori indah untuk aku ingati...kadang kala..hidup sentiasa membuat kita berkejaran..dan lemas dalam lautan masa yang dalam..kita terlupa mereka yang disisi kita..dalam penas terik atau hujan renyai..mereka ada untuk kita..kerana sudah terbiasa..mereka disisi kita..kita lupa kewujudannya..bukan kita membenci..hanya terlalai dan terbiasa..bila mereka tiada..baru kita memandang masa lampau..mengingati tiap jalanan masa bersama..dan jasa mereka pada kita...hari ini juga..aku temui kawan baru penganti kawan lama..aku masih cuba memahaminya..semuanya bermula dari kosong..ada rasa gembira..ada rasa sesal dan ada rasa mencurigai..adakah kawan baru ini sebaik kawan lama???

nafas baru~

pernah tak bawak kereta dalam hujan lebat amat??
cermin kereta yang berbalang balang..macam mata kabur dengan power speak yang agak-agak lebih seribu ukurannye..wiper yang halaju tertinggi pun tak dapat betulkan keadaan..
waktu malam pula..dan bila terkena cahaya lampu kereta lain dari depan..ibarat dah jadi orang buta tanpa tongkat...teraba raba..mencari jalan...kalau ada kereta lain di hadapan..mungkin kesusahan dan kerumitan memandu tak keterlaluan...tapi hanya seorang diri..tengah2 padang luas..tanpa lampu jalan..dan hujan yang mengila..ditambah pulak udara dari aircond yang sejuk mengigit gigit kulit dan segala liang roma..aper yang diharapkan...ketika itu..baru aku faham..bagaimana kita mengharap cahaya datang menyinari hidup..sungguh..pertama kali dalam hidup..secara sedarnya..aku mengharapkan cahaya walau sedikit pun datang membantu aku mencari arah haluan aku..Tuhan mungkin mendengar...setitik cahaya dari motor yang jauh kat depan..memberi harapan baru...akhirnya..ada panduan untuk teruskan perjalanan..lepas tiba destinasi dengan selamatnya..dan hujan pun mulai reda...keadaan sudahpun tenang..serasa MEPUNYAI NAFAS YANG BARU....

si buta~

orang lain tak selalunye salah
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dan
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kita tak selalunya betul
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kita hanya si buta
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yang mencari satu kehidupan

~eid passed by

eid mubarak..

passed by like typhoon..

and time seem very envious..

as the day is counting to the end of history..

Years of hatred have been forgot, In the blissful of a minute..

we will see each other again next season!!insyallah!!

uNgrateful...

looking the others...its really tiring and ungrateful...i lost my happiness behind every smile of them..i wish..for another life..or another dream...or another hope...yet another happiness..what my life take me anyway??
i'm so hepy yesterday..i'm so excited today..but shamelessly i wish much for tomorrow.. the sun still smiling..the tree still waving all da way..the sky still bright..the star still shining...i'm still living..still breathing...still wishing for nothing...always ask for sumthing that i'm really not understand with...for every granted wishes...there's also another sacrifice to be ritual..still..i want to see another happiness..what another pleasure to seek??
~i'm just ordinary human who seek for extraordinary life...the way of life that sentence..i wish to be different...
~ i'm just every human..who still forget to be GRATEFUL...

LiVe whaT u Love~

life..
future..
dream...
hope...
love...
passion...
belief..
family...
friend..
self...

just live what u love~

~The most exhausting thing in life is being insincere...If you are ashamed to stand by your colors, you had better seek another flag....


Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss

objection~

how if we deciding to object than agree???

objection means we deciding to state the negative statement.."no" "not" " i can't" "i won't" "i don't" and sort of it..

i fully understand that for certain situation..its just so good to object..its open up to new idea generation and help to change way of thinking..but how if--->

"i don't want to help when asked to"
"i 'm not laughing for the joke that everyone laugh"
"i don't want to have friendship when other want it"
"i'm not eating when politely invited"
"i said i can't when other invited"
" i choose not full the request when requested"
" i'm not pick up call when the others called"

and so on.....

Am i problematic??? Am i sinful to object??Am i bad to be truth???

Lately...i just found out...I must do only thing that i'm really sincere to do...and i think nothing wrong if we object...I'm the one who will answer the request anyway...in malay tradition ..at least they will say. .."buatlah..jaga hati"..how capable we are to satisfy everyone everytime???for me "buatlah..kalau rasa ikhlas"...i'm know how suffer it is to do sumthing we forced to..i will answering request or doing the favor..if there no choice other than me..itu sudah jadi fardu kifayyah anyway...just because most of time ..i'm trying to sattle my own problem till the end rather than bothering the others..so i'm really hate those who like to take advantage before trying to hard to solve their own problem...that way..now..i'm so very selfish just do only the thing i'm willing to do..i felt bad after i object..but i know..i will suffering enough if i answer it..pretend ..fake up.. hipocriet.. anyway to object and being truth is a wise choice for now...i hope so..